18yrs

29/10/2005-18 Years Later *Ricky Morris*
"Thinking Of You And Missing You"

Gone But Never Forgotten
Welcome back to my site, myself i haven't been in here much i have been very slack with my
updates, i do apologize for this laziness of mine.

It all started back in May-05 when i decided to do a website on the memory of my brother
'Ricky' and that's when it all began for myself a journey i never imagined. From that date
forward to this i have received a lot of information and spoken to all sorts of people from high up
to general people whom either knew nothing or some that knew it all. Today i still speak to few
who have supported me through this journey, without them i'm not sure where i would be today
with all of this.
Some say "go get them Cheryle" some just show there sympathy for all that has happened and
wish me well with it all.

Its been a hard road after 18yrs, i bring all this memory up for some people and for myself i learn
the truth about my brothers death, hard yes, heartbreaking yes, pissed off yes, lots of looking
back at the early days when Ricky was inside i use to think "what could i have done to make it
all different "; And there has been lots of "If only i did this or done that' but as i have learnt
now i can not blame myself for the time i couldn't be there for him. Lots of issue's raised their
ugly heads but i have had to deal with them one by one during this time, i after all this time can
see a bit clearer and now all i can say is i have to move forward and fight for what Ricky would
have wanted and get out of my sad-anger stage.

Grieving is one of the hardest thing i've have had to go through in this case really hard as a lot
of things didn't add up, corruption within the system, so many lies and yet still looking for
answer's to all of this shit. I guess i have received the answer's but they weren't the ones i was
looking for.
When i started all this i went full forward and not to mention at high speed, i contacted so many
people and received so much information it was a great help, but some wouldn't tell as they are
still in the system today although a couple gave me some info that was enlightening, a few that
were on the inside at the time contacted me and either sent their wishes whilst others just
bragged about there time there and it followed with the typical macho stuff, some i contacted
were rude and didn't want any part of it (this showed me who the real dogs were).

I came to accept that it was a hard thing to drag up after so long and to some it was an horrific
time and there avoidance in this matter was ok to be left until - if they ever felt comfortable to
get back to me with anything, i wont hold my breath.

3 months into this i went bang and hit a wall i was so full of anger and hatred towards the system
it wasn't a nice feeling, i was so angry with Robert Wright for starting the protest, i was so sad
and in pain as i learnt what my brother had been going through & had been through whilst on the
inside.. Dirty mongrel screws i hope they suffer today for what they had done back then, i say
this to the negative ones who were actually in the unit on the day but then again i say it to any
screw who mistreated any prisoners back in the Pentridge, Jika-Jika days "any prison actually".
As sad as it is their were some that had committed suicide or became drunks or just left the
system after the Fires back in "87" those who were there and played their part the best they
could could no longer stand that dreaded day tormenting their head. Along another line i have
learnt that not all are the same, there a few far between whom really did the job on a positive
note, some were around but they had to keep their  mouth shut in order to keep their jobs, a few
have said to me "it should not have happened Ricky he shouldn't have been in such a unit" but
as usual there is always 1 story after another lies-truth-fear-regret-and lots of sorry's.

Somehow i will get the summary of the 'coroners inquest' files added to my site for all to read if
you haven't read it yet, i need to do it in a pdf file this i will do just not sure when, i have done a
few pages of a journal from prisoners that they did back in '88', oh and there is some truth in
that, once completed i have 7 pages to type out i shall add it to my site as well.
Its been a difficult past 6 months for me, as a person who suffers with depression 1 could only
imagine what i have endured with all of this. Thank you to all who have supported me and whom
are still here with me today to help me get to the end of my journey. Credits are in my thank you
page.

Where am i going with it all, well after having a meeting with a fellow friend whom is going to
help me & contacts he has, *we have a plan* its going to take a bit and a few walls to break
through. The system can forget that day as much as they want but hey "WE WONT" the day it will
all come alive will be the 29-10-07, this will be the 20yr anniversary. {Cancelled now will be 2012}
Please be sure to drop in to my guest book and remember all those who lost their life on this day
back in '87'. For Ricky he never got to spend his 18th birthday outside so please help me by
acknowledging him on Saturday 29th October for the 18th yr of his death.

Time of deaths 4.15 to 4.35... R.I.P
I will be adding more please keep checking back or send me your email addy and i'll inform you
of updates as they come....